We all know that we can’t control everything. We may not feel like we can, but that’s ok. So what if we do? We have to learn to trust that we’re responsible for our behavior and that’s ok.
For those of us who have been through the experience of being on a roller coaster, the feeling of having control over our actions, and being able to control what we say, is a very powerful feeling. And one that we are able to fully experience and feel. But at the same time, it is a huge responsibility.
I think the majority of the time we are only aware of our own behaviors and reactions. When we are on a roller coaster, we don’t think about what we are doing at all. It is only when we are on one of those rides that we understand we are doing it and that we can control it. So the feeling of control is almost like having a child. Except that when we are parents, we can control the movements of our children, but we can’t control them.
The feeling of control is the same way. To me it is like having a child and its always a fun thing to be a parent of a kid. It makes it so much easier to parent a child. In the same way, if I know that I cannot control my reactions, then I have no reason to be on top of my game when I am at a party and I get drunk.
A lot of what we do when we are intoxicated is to do things in ways that would have been unthinkable under normal circumstances. For example, when I got drunk at the party, I was able to get completely lost in the music. I could dance to all the songs and sing along. It was amazing. I was able to forget that I was at a party drunk and just be at ease with whatever I was experiencing.